It is midnight. And Im awake. Normally, this would be uhh...normal. However, tonight it isn’t normal, because Im tired and until about 5 hours ago, I was feeling inspired about tomorrow (starting my new diet/exercise plan) and whenever I am inspired about the next morning, I tend to fall asleep much easier.
I have not even begun my weight loss journey officially, and I am already failing! This is not acceptable :(
You see, I have been doing decently all day, thinking to myself "I am not going to go hog wild on junk food just because I am starting a new plan tomorrow. I need to practice self control". But we all know that the more we obsess, the more we...obsess! Oh the redundancy of this post.
So, I know you see where this is going right? I was doing alright, until I accidently had 2 quesadillas this afternoon...but I thought, "NO GENEE! You will not keep going with this, you will shake it off and keep looking forward to tomorrow's plan, and two lil quesadillas will not throw you off this wagon prematurely"...but then, after visiting my grandma, I got home to my boyfriend, Derrick, Saying he wants to make one of my FAVORITE comfort foods (although not listed on my previous post as a Fave, it is an OLD fave from childhood!)....Mac and cheese. And Derrick is a big eater, although not a particularly big fella (lucky guy has a great metabolism), so he made ALOT of Mac and cheese, 3 boxes to be exact. I must have eaten at least one box all by itself.
Now I feel like CRAP...physically and mentally! I cannot sleep, and I know that day 1 back on that elliptical is going to be sooo much harder because of the way I fed myself today!
Does anyone els do this? Binge eat the day before you go on a diet/meal plan (whatever you want to call it)? I really thought this time would be different. And I am hoping it still will be. I got to do something different. And I do have ALOT of stress and dissatisfaction in other parts of my life right now, so I know that emotional eating is allot of what I will be battling, so I will take a tip from bitchcakes, and try to modify my behavior, and find other things to replace those warm fuzzy feelings food gives me when I am feeling particularly vulnerable... I highly recommend reading her post, I really enjoyed it.
So I know I promised pictures, and a bit more about myself, but you see that wasn’t supposed to be until tomorrow (well since it is after midnight, I guess you could say, not till later today! Ha!), so gotta wait till then! Its ok, I know I don’t have followers any ways lol! But I can pretend ;) I am still getting use to this online community though, and figure it will all come to me some day as to how to utilize everything to my full advantage. But really, I love BlogSpot already and don’t know what took me so long to get on here and read everyone’s wonderful blogs and ramblings. I already have some favorites I look forward to.
Well now that I got that food binge catastrophe off my chest, I will resist posting a pic of a big bowl of macaroni and cheese, and try to head back to bed.... after reading through a couple more blogs and stopping by youtube of course! haha
until later today (tomorrow?)...
xoxo! Genee'
I have not even begun my weight loss journey officially, and I am already failing! This is not acceptable :(
You see, I have been doing decently all day, thinking to myself "I am not going to go hog wild on junk food just because I am starting a new plan tomorrow. I need to practice self control". But we all know that the more we obsess, the more we...obsess! Oh the redundancy of this post.
So, I know you see where this is going right? I was doing alright, until I accidently had 2 quesadillas this afternoon...but I thought, "NO GENEE! You will not keep going with this, you will shake it off and keep looking forward to tomorrow's plan, and two lil quesadillas will not throw you off this wagon prematurely"...but then, after visiting my grandma, I got home to my boyfriend, Derrick, Saying he wants to make one of my FAVORITE comfort foods (although not listed on my previous post as a Fave, it is an OLD fave from childhood!)....Mac and cheese. And Derrick is a big eater, although not a particularly big fella (lucky guy has a great metabolism), so he made ALOT of Mac and cheese, 3 boxes to be exact. I must have eaten at least one box all by itself.
Now I feel like CRAP...physically and mentally! I cannot sleep, and I know that day 1 back on that elliptical is going to be sooo much harder because of the way I fed myself today!
Does anyone els do this? Binge eat the day before you go on a diet/meal plan (whatever you want to call it)? I really thought this time would be different. And I am hoping it still will be. I got to do something different. And I do have ALOT of stress and dissatisfaction in other parts of my life right now, so I know that emotional eating is allot of what I will be battling, so I will take a tip from bitchcakes, and try to modify my behavior, and find other things to replace those warm fuzzy feelings food gives me when I am feeling particularly vulnerable... I highly recommend reading her post, I really enjoyed it.
So I know I promised pictures, and a bit more about myself, but you see that wasn’t supposed to be until tomorrow (well since it is after midnight, I guess you could say, not till later today! Ha!), so gotta wait till then! Its ok, I know I don’t have followers any ways lol! But I can pretend ;) I am still getting use to this online community though, and figure it will all come to me some day as to how to utilize everything to my full advantage. But really, I love BlogSpot already and don’t know what took me so long to get on here and read everyone’s wonderful blogs and ramblings. I already have some favorites I look forward to.
Well now that I got that food binge catastrophe off my chest, I will resist posting a pic of a big bowl of macaroni and cheese, and try to head back to bed.... after reading through a couple more blogs and stopping by youtube of course! haha
until later today (tomorrow?)...
xoxo! Genee'
